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Okay....

Positive thoughts...
Positive thoughts...
I say to myself in a voice so low
That only me & my troubled mind
Can hear

 I then tell myself 
If I repeat those two words enough
Then my troubled mind will start to listen
And the battle going on in there
Will end
The negativity will dissipate
And I will be okay 

 I can hear the comforting sound that is 
My mother's voice
Telling me stop stressing because
Everything will work out
God will make it okay

 If only I was so certain...

 My heart pounds with my hope that all 
Will be okay as my mother and
The Father have promised
But my troubled mind is an ocean of
Pessimistic thoughts that come in
Like tidal waves
Between every hopeful beat of my heart

 My spirit is gasping for air 
As tears flood my pain stricken face
Any trace of my smile 
Has been washed away
And I am drowning in my own thoughts

 IT WILL BE OKAY!

 Maybe if I scream this time
Then my troubled mind will hear me
And maybe
Just maybe
Now
It will all be
Okay.

-Courtney Lewis
6/16/2014

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