Coco's Chaos

On March 19, 2017, I took a huge step in my spiritual journey. I walked into a baptism pool, lowered myself into the holy water, and allowed my mind, spirit, heart and body to be cleansed. I rose up from the water with a new outlook. I was ready to embark on the next steps of my journey as a baptized woman. A year later, I am reflecting upon the 365 plus days since my baptism and I am amazed by the growth I've experienced. Was the journey easy? Absolutely not. Was it easier to face the battles and adversity after renewing my relationship with God? Absolutely. I have constantly been reminded that God never said weapons wouldn't form. He said they wouldn't prosper (Isaiah 54:17) . I hit some bumps in the road (spiritually, financially, mentally, and physically). I went through a short season of confusion and lack of motivation. I was angry with God. I yelled at Him! (Ever seen me yelling and upset? Then you know this wasn't cute!) Literally, yelled out loud and quest

Mirror, Mirror on the wall I stare in you and watch tears fall As I try to convince myself of my worth I try to convince myself that Im enough MORE than enough Mirror, Mirror showing my scars Pinpointing all my flaws Should I even look at you anymore Should I even allow you to see me To see ALL of me? Mirror, Mirror Look away I’ll refund you the attention you paid Let me stand here in my skin Allow me to look at myself Every inch of this frame Mirror, Mirror look at me I dont need you to see The true beauty that I encompass  The perfect imperfections that make ME  that shape ME I will stare you down and win  Never will you steal my confidence again I will see what is really there Not the image you portray I see ME and I see my WORTH and I see what you tried to do Im watching you, Mirror -Courtney L (2/17/18)  #Worthy #AMirrorCantSeeYourTrueBeauty #SelfConfidence #LoveYourself