Coco's Chaos

Mirror, Mirror on the wall I stare in you and watch tears fall As I try to convince myself of my worth I try to convince myself that Im enough MORE than enough Mirror, Mirror showing my scars Pinpointing all my flaws Should I even look at you anymore Should I even allow you to see me To see ALL of me? Mirror, Mirror Look away I’ll refund you the attention you paid Let me stand here in my skin Allow me to look at myself Every inch of this frame Mirror, Mirror look at me I dont need you to see The true beauty that I encompass  The perfect imperfections that make ME  that shape ME I will stare you down and win  Never will you steal my confidence again I will see what is really there Not the image you portray I see ME and I see my WORTH and I see what you tried to do Im watching you, Mirror -Courtney L (2/17/18)  #Worthy #AMirrorCantSeeYourTrueBeauty #SelfConfidence #LoveYourself

        Ive “let myself go” recently... havent pampered myself or put much effort into my outward appearance for awhile because I was uncomfortable with my “new body”. I didnt know how to be Courtney anymore because I didnt feel like Courtney anymore. The girl that had hundreds of clothing items has had her closet reduced to a few things that “fit” and a few others she cant bring herself to part with (the local Goodwill dropoff bay has seen me often this year).  Im tired of looking in the mirror and not feeling my best. Im tired of just being “okay” with the way I look.  Im done being insecure, unsure of myself & weighed down (no pun intended) by the extra pounds. I have to love myself no matter what size I wear. No matter what the scale says.  Changes are happening. Mentally. Physically. Emotionally. Im changing. Im caring again. Im going to love myself again. Inside and out. Get ready for a comeback! Love, Coco

It seems as if you cant go anywhere without seeing an Ugly Christmas Sweater section. Even Walmart has a set up! Everyone is preparing for all of the parties with this wonderfully unattractive theme. Ive even been invited to one this year. So, its time for us to pull out the best of our worst in our sweater collection. Keep in mind, just because your sweater is supposed to be "ugly" doesnt mean the rest of your look cant be fabulous. Here are a few looks to help you get ready for the #UglyChristmasSweater season! Be fabulously "ugly"! Love, Coco #CocosChaos #HappyHolidays

.. .and we're gonna watch someone else get married !  No, those arent the actual lyrics but since I cant think of any songs perfect for a wedding guest, I remixed it. Deal with it. Its Spring and that means the kickoff of wedding season. Top bridal designers recently participated in Bridal Fashion week and rolled out their latest in bridal apparel ( check out Galia Lahav, Lazaro and Berta Bridal's collection. LOVE! ). This signifies the beginning of the time of year that we'll all start getting more notifications of engagements and invitations for nuptials in the mail (or by email; if you're a hi-tech kind of bride). I have already attended one wedding this season ( Congrats to my friend Jodi!) and have two more coming up soon ( Congrats to my cousin Krishan and to my cousin Justin!!) . And I swear everytime I log on to Facebook someone else has gotten engaged or married. Must be something in the air other than pollen. It s always exciting to witness the joining of two

Depending on where you are in the country and what day of the week it is, Winter is making its exit and Spring is sashaying in. Gone are the days of covering up as much skin as possible to avoid the savage chill of winter's wrath. Now, we can bask in the warmth of the sun and the cool breezes of Springtime. According to my calendar, Spring "officially" started about a week ago. If you are lucky enough to live in a place that has seen a rise in temperatures and the return of the sun, this post is for you! If your area's temperatures havent quite gotten that "Its Spring!" memo yet, I'm sorry. Maybe you can think happy, warm thoughts and use this post as inspriation as you daydream about the warm weather ensembles you will debut when the temperature catches up to the calendar.  I, for one, am very excited about Spring. I love any weather that allows me to either particiapte in #SundressSeason or wear my go-to jeans and a cute tank and sandals. I really love

The older I get, the more I excited I am when I have the chance to stay home and do absolutely nothing. And lets not even discuss the pure joy I feel in my spirit when I am able to take a good nap... *daydreams about taking a nap* I could stay in my room all day and only leave for food if you let me.  I decided while writing my Best of 2014 post that I would make it a point to get out of my room more and do at least one activity or attend at least one event each month. I want to have stories to tell and memories to reflect upon. I cant tell tales of all the hours I spent locked away in my room, in bed, watching all my DVR'd shows while I dined upon delicious junk food. That would be tragic and quite frankly, a dull existence. So, Im fighting the temptation to be an introvert all the time and actually live a little. We're now in our third month of the year and so far I have kept my promise to myself. I'm getting out more and making more plans. I'm still VERY excited abou